Since I was a little girl I've had this dream that I've never let go of. I longed to make beautiful things, see an idea through from start to finish, and work with my peers to form a dream team. I accepted an opportunity to come to New York for an internship last fall. Within the first four weeks of school I'd nailed down a plan for summer- a plan that would get me one step closer to that dream...
I made a promise to myself at the beginning of 2017 that I would dedicate myself to designing. Learning how to make what's in my head, learning how to develop an initial idea, and growing my taste levels. And as I grew, my body was getting run down. My anxiety spun out of control, my mood swung from left to right. I put pressure on the ones I love, and I let the negativity fester for too long. I got the grades, I got the job, yet I was dragging myself through the days.
I arrived in New York with three bags, a tired mind, and a really bad attitude. I woke up to the sound of a lovely 10 foot jack hammer at 6am on the first day, and everyday since. I walked to work looking forward to the moment I could go home and sleep. I was working to work, and for many moments here, I lost all passion I had for anything. The busy environment irritates me, the water dripping on my head is disgusting, and I really can't afford to live the way I'd like to here.
But guess what, I'm so happy to know this now.
Every opportunity that has come my way has been rainbows and butterflies for Ashley Romasko. I've been fortunate enough to walk away with memories richer than gold after every quarter at SCAD, every summer break, and every adventure I've been on with my best friends and family. This one is just taking more effort to enjoy. My dream of working on fashion avenue has come true, and I've realized it's maybe not what I want. So I can either go home each night feeling defeated and anxious, or get it together and fight to make this experience what I want it to be.
Maybe we are afraid to admit that it's not all we'd dreamt of, and maybe we are afraid of having to work for those rewarding moments. The people I've met so far have given me expansive knowledge in fashion, and great direction in my career. Now it's time to do something to make the experience my own. The dream I once had is quickly evolving and ya gotta roll with the punches, stay patient, and fight all the mental and physical barriers for what you want.